Because Mrs. Tina Smith wanted nothing so much
as to be alone after the sham event that stood as placeholder for a proper funeral
for her younger son, she wanted to be dropped off by Deacon Jim right directly
in front of her rowhouse. The number of police cars
and forensic vans along the street had lessened considerably overnight so
Deacon Jim stopped the car such that she could not have been closer to her
front door. She got out of the car without a word of a thank-you and got to her
front door before any members of the reporter-camp pitched two hundred yards up
the block knew what was what, but then as she was putting the key into the lock
she heard a shout from up the block--There she is!--. Quickly she got into her
house and closed the door and locked it. Slowly she took off her coat and put
it on a coathanger and hung the coathanger
and coat on a coathook. At an easy pace she went into
the livingroom and sat down on the couch and looked
at the rug under her feet. For no good reason she thought about the stain on
the rug. It was right under her, that rusty stain they'd purposefully hidden
the couch. It was as if she felt the aura of the rugstain,
which was directly under her butt, directly under the couch, reach up into her
mind and cause her to see things in the grandest scale possible; she saw her
self when she had been five, ten, fifteen, twenty, twenty-five, and now thirty;
she saw her husband and she saw her older son and she saw her daughter too. Yet
she still had the feeling that all of that--what she considered to be the
centre of her universe--wasn't the centre of her universe at all. She felt like
some moon of Jupiter--assuming there are moons of Jupiter. The rug was a
ghastly thing. Darren had brought it home some time months ago, maybe a year
ago. He'd bought it for fifty bucks. A dead woman's possessions, all her
possessions, had been sold at one go by her son and daughter to the shop. He'd
said it was an Asian rug. He'd said that the rest of the stuff was exotic too,
like the old woman's father, grandfather?, had been
some big time world traveller. Darren had claimed the rug because the livingroom needed one and why spend five hundred dollars
when the only problem was a brownish stain in one corner that could easily hide
under the couch?
Meanwhile, in another part of the cosmos (go
up seven levels of reality and down three and you'll be there), in a part I
can't exactly describe except to say that souls existed there, a different
woman employing an elaborate media system was watching the woman who was
sitting on the couch. The colours of that part of the couch
were all awry, like a fanciful fog of djinn dust in a
Disney film, all purple and green and yellow and pink flowing around and about
in eddies almost like fingers though of course they weren't fingers
really, no. The woman who was watching couldn't stop herself from remembering
what had happened to her just five days earlier. It had turned from an overcast
day to a sunny day, from nineteen degrees to twenty-six degrees, on that
Saturday morning. At one-thirty that afternoon, she was chopping up onions and
carrots in the kitchen. A car backfired somewhere and she remembered a car her
father had had back in the seventies, an old car it was, with frequent
backfire. She thought, Isn't it odd that the problem of automobile backfires
have been more or less solved? Not completely, of course. Someone's antique
auto I suppose. She was making an elaborate chicken pot pie, for no-one but
herself. A few minutes later she heard someone knocking at the front door. She
wiped her hands on a towel and went out into the hallway. Yes, someone big was
at the door. It turned out to be--Michael--from down the street. She said,
"Hello, Michael. Is everything okay?" He didn't look at all okay. He
looked like he was in shock or maybe even in a trance or on drugs. He
smiled--his eyes looked like they were seeing right through her, or past her--and
said, "Everything's fine, Mrs. Anne. Well, not completely. Is your husband
home? What about your daughter?" She said her husband was out on a fishing
trip, and her baby daughter was sleeping upstairs. Michael laughed a little and
said, "Two out of three." He shoved her into the house. The screen
door closed behind him. He shoved her again, into the livingroom.
"What are you doing?" she cried. "Just ... something," he
said. He shoved her onto the couch and from behind him from somewhere he
suddenly had a gun. "Okay now," he said, and shot her in the face.
Two weeks before that happened, down the
street, at around four in the afternoon, Tom and Liz were in Liz's bedroom, at
the computer, editing together a supercut of blowjobs
and facials set to the intermezzo of Cavalleria Rusticana. Tom had come home from university for the
weekend; Liz was trying to find herself really. In any case, they were browsing
through all sorts of websites, avoiding paywalls and popups and phishers and phonies,
looking for as much as they could download for free (which wasn't that hard to
do). Tom, a bit sweaty, a bit hungry, decided to get something from the kitchen
so he went down the stairs into the livingroom where
he found his younger brother Mike sitting on the couch staring at nothing and
of a little bitter pale shade. "Hey Mike." Tom shrugged and went into
the kitchen. A second after he opened the refrigerator there came a terrific
crack from the livingroom. Tom ignored that too. He
put jam on a piece of bread, folded the bread, and ate it. He went back into
the livingroom. Mike was still sitting there. At that
moment Tom remember the cracking sound. Maybe it had come from outside, but
there was nothing strange outside. Just trees and so on,
waving their branches like they were waving to whoever was in the livingroom. It looked like Mike was looking out the
window, but there was nothing there except for the trees. Was this something to
worry about? Tom sat down beside Mike and said, "Hey, Mike." Mike
blinked and turned his head. "You okay?" Mike said, "I'm fine.
Don't worry, you. I've just got some stuff on my mind, some stuff in my mind
going on. Just looking at the trees." "I can
see that." "They're alive, you know." "Yes, trees are
alive." Mike almost shouted, "I mean, really alive! They're not at
all what we think they are. We think they're people. But they're not people." "Okay, Mike,
whatever you say." And Tom dropped it at that, rolled his eyes around, and
went back up to Liz's room. She was making an edit point just behind the beat,
just where you're supposed to. Tom said, "Has Mike been acting
weird?" "A little, I suppose. Doesn't talk much, if that's what you
mean. But he never talked much. Say, d'you think we should supercut beats
where the stuff gets into her eyes?"
Don woke up on the Sunday morning two weeks later not not knowing where he
was. The air was full of evergreen and the sounds of lakewaves
and canvas juniper light. He sat up with a bedroll rustle and put his hands on
his cold knees. He had a headache--hangover--but it didn't matter in the least.
There was fishing to do. He crawled out of the tent and looked over for another
morning the rocks, the trees, the water, the moss. The
campfire, the beercans, the empty flask. He
kicked at the tent and called, "Hey, Andy, c'mon, eat some bread, let's
get in the boat." They were out on the water by seven-thirty, rather late
really. They had something like five hours to go. Andy said, "They're
probably all in bed still." Both thought about their houses back in the city,
in their rowhouse back in the city, barbecues in the
back, calling from yard to yard. A couple fishermen brought together, off for
some camping, away from it all, alone on a little sea. They scored three fish
to take home, packed 'em in the cooler--the ice
they'd pick up on the way back--then they scooped up the tent and all the other
stuff and poured it into the canoe and said goodbye quietly to the cape. They
got to the portage that connected Burnt Island Lake and Baby Joe Lake where
there was something of a traffic jam with a whole bunch of people heading back
to the city so to make things easier--and harder at the same time--Don hefted
up the canoe solo while Andy struggled under the load of every godforsaken
thing they'd brought with them, so they could do it all in one trip. They went
on down, hardly needing the map because everyone was heading in the same
direction, but Don kept checking it all the same. You don't want to get lost in
this world. A map is a kind of a prediction of what's to come. Of course you
have to read it right. Not every tree that's ever lived could be on it. There
was a buzz in Don's pocket. He said, "I think we're back in range."
He took out his phone and looked at it. There were seven messages. "Jeez,
I got seven messages." Andy thus prompted took out his phone and checked
it out. "I got nine. Now what the."
On
I am the only one who knows that
(Outside of time, a conversation took place.
This is part of it, translated into your language for you.) You cannot
comprehend the distances and the durations we are speaking about. Your mind is
too small, your life is too tiny, for you to possibly
even come close to understanding anything important. There is vastly more to
things than you can see. So it's like a
pyramid? With knowledge at the top? Somewhat. But there are many pyramids. They are all
right-angled isosceles triangles, if you can possibly understand what is meant
by that. I know what a right-angled
isosceles triangle is. But tell me: where are we now? Where am I now? You
haven't even taken the first step up. We are vastly superior to you--we've been
learning for a span too incredible for you to understand--and yet we have in
relation to ourselves beings as advanced as we are over you. We obey them, as
you should obey us. How do I join? What
do I gain by it? Aren't I better off not knowing any of this? O blissful
ignorance! We are offering you something beyond anything any of your friends,
neighbours, leaders have ever had to offer you or anyone. You can be,
relatively speaking, the wisest of your race. But what would be the point of that? What could I have to offer you?
You can offer to us ... that which we cannot get in any other way. There is a wisdom to you. A tiny bit of wisdom.
Every little bit helps. In any case, you have much more to gain than we have.
You will advance a thousand-fold, while we will advance one-thousandth-fold.
(Some time later, or some time earlier, or at the same time, this exchange took
place.) How will you know? How can I get beyond myself? You must show you understand what we have been telling you. Something to signify that you understand your place in the
universe. Maybe you could actuate your knowledge on others of your kind.
Do you know what we mean? I don't. Listen.
Your idea of morality is no good. What is it based upon? You are very much
closer to the bacteria you casually destroy with antibiotics than you are to
us. Very much more closer to pond scum really. Once you understand what we are
telling you now, you will know what to do to show you belong with us.
Some time later--anywhere from five hours to
two months later--a videographer by the name of CU
Murphy was driving around town, listening to the police band. "Shots
fired," more "shots fired," even more "shots fired."
CU turned her car around and sped to the scene. Dozens of cops were there
already, standing in front of a bunch of row houses all attached. They were
putting up the yellow police tape around trees and stuff already. CU went up to
the closest cop and said, "I'm with news station NEWS." She showed
her ID. "What happened here?" The cop said, "Looks like serial
homicide, maybe mass homicide." CU wrote this down, looking for useful
facts. Not just raw facts she wanted; she wanted useful facts. "In one of these houses?"
"In all of
these houses." "Geez,
every one? Who did it?" "A neighbour says she saw one of the kids
going from the third house to the eighth house, then from the tenth house to
the fifth house. I guess he was using back doors and front doors, never from
one place to an adjacent place." CU didn't quite know the meaning of the
word adjacent so she wrote the perp had gone from house to house methodically. "Alright, but that's crazy all this, was it just
one guy?" The cop said, "Doesn't look like it, but there could have
been more." CU wrote down 'one or more.' CU continued, to the cop,
starting to get excited, starting to see $$$, "My paper, we're pushing
this 'rape culture' narrative. Can you tell me, was there any
raping involved?" The cop looked at her with some amusement. Then
he got a hold of himself and said, "It's much too early to tell." CU
wrote 'possible rape culture.' "A lot killed, huh? This is
newsworthy. Some in each house, huh?" The cop said, "We're up to
twenty-five so far. Looks like the guy killed his father and his sister and his
brother too. Then himself." "Wow," said
CU. "Mass slaughter. Was everyone white?" The cop said, "Seems
so." CU asked, "Any Hegelian angle I can put on this?" The cop
asked, "What?" "I mean were there any oppressed people, y'know, homosexuals women natives Moslems?" The cop
shrugged. "I think down at the end there was an indian family." CU scribbled it down quickly,
great, great, maybe some murdered and missing women! Twenty minutes later the
scoop appeared on the NEWS website, white slaughter of natives, raped
beforehand, thirty dead, nothing like it, more social services needed. At the
bottom of the webpage the people--God love 'em--were
invited to report typographical errors.
A week later, and
there was Tina, still sitting on the couch, after the funerals and memorials
both public and private. She'd lost her husband, her daughter, her sons, and it
was getting pretty late. Next day her sister came over with food but not much
else. What could anyone do? Next next night she went
to sleep at nine, feeling that the house was somewhat unseasonably warm. No
matter, no matter; she fell asleep drowsily Lethe-likely; carbon monoxide does
that to people. Down in the basement, the floor temperature was around six
hundred degrees. A wooden partition fell over as its base fractured. From
somewhere, assumedly from an open window, oxygen entered, and the partition
reached the flash point and the partition burst into a general flame. In five
minutes the entire basement was burning and the temperatures in the basements
on either side were climbing too. It was only a matter of time. Tina slept
upstairs as she died. The folks across the street who'd mentioned around a week
before that some kid had been going from house-to-house with a gun reported to
the fire people that the place seemed to be going up in flames. The fire trucks
got there and yes indeed the place was all going up in flames. Six domiciles
all-in-all were rendered uninhabitable. The fire forensicals
got in there once the burn had died down--five people had died, including
Don--and sought the source. Turned out it was geothermal. A little flame of
volcano had crept up from the crust of the earth and busted through right there
below the Smith place. Who knew why? It was all just a coïncidence, as The New
Yorker would say. The clean-up crew dug up all the ashes of the burned building--the
Smith place--where they found only one bit of anything that appeared to have
been unaffected by the confabulation. It was a right-angled isosceles triangle
of what was it a carpet? Well, who cared. This piece
of carpeting was thrown out with everything else, not even noted in any way,
with not even so much as a late-nite post-coitus mentioniad by a firefighter. Nothing at
all. It was just thrown into the garbage. And into a
garbage dump. A land-fill more specifically.
And there it festered, of the larger cosmos, for four hundred thirty three
years and one hundred and eighteen days whereupon it ... became left for
someone else to tell of.
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